Short Meditations for Easter on the Cross: 31. Postscript
Acts 1:12-14 Then the apostles returned to Jerusalem from the hill called the Mount of Olives … When they arrived, they went upstairs to the room where they were staying….. They all joined together constantly in prayer
It didn’t feel right to stop at Easter day for the story has to go on. But it is not merely ‘a story’, it is time-space history, it happened and continues to happen. We move on to what are events that are probably a month and a half on from Easter Sunday. Since then the disciples – men and women – had spent a period of time up in Galilee with Jesus as we noted yesterday. Then they had returned to Jerusalem where Jesus left them and ascended back to heaven to sit at his Father’s right hand.
One of the things I have found in the back of my mind this Easter has been the emotional roller coaster that this time has been. For Peter, much of the time, it had been a nightmare. As one of Jesus’ leaders, he had let his master down – badly! He had denied Jesus three times – and, as we said previously, Jesus knew it (Lk 23:61). Who else would have known? Dare we even suggest there was a measure of relief – over this at least – when Jesus died. When Jesus rose, there was this specter of a confrontation with Peter, just hanging there in the back of his mind. But he didn’t take the cowards way out as Judas had, so he didn’t take his own life. He stayed with the others and went to Galilee, probably full of foreboding. And then, beyond anything he might have expected, Jesus told him to lead his church. But I am an absolute failure! Yes, but you are still here. “Feed my lambs …. Take care of my sheep … Feed my sheep.” (Jn 21:15-17)
A couple of years ago, a young man came to me and said, “I want to be a church leader.” I replied, “You must be out of your mind! However, if God is calling you, go for it.” Why that response? As my wife says having watched me for many years, if you have never been a church leader, you just don’t know and can’t possibly comprehend the difficulties and stresses that church leaders go through. They carry the church in their hearts, they are there on call twenty-four hours a day, they are front of the queue for enemy attacks, they carry the discouragements and the criticisms and are so often expected to be perfect, but they know they are not. We don’t know what Peter felt when Jesus ascended and left them, but I doubt it was relief. His calling would result, according to tradition at least, in his also dying on a cross. So now? They did the only thing you can do in such a situation, they sat down and prayed.
Life will go on despite our failures; we have an amazing God of grace and forgiveness. We are out the other side of Easter now and life goes on. But he IS still here, by his Spirit at least, and he is still leading his church and he is still there for us; that is the wonder of Easter. Our failures, our confusions, our hurts, are not the end. He will continue to lead us and work out his Father’s will. Join him in heart and worship – and keep on! The future is in His hands. Amen? Amen!