Short Meditations on Peace 14. Peace over the past
Isa 32:17 The fruit of righteousness will be peace; the effect of righteousness will be quietness and confidence forever.
In the previous two meditations we considered a little of the stress (and therefore absence of peace) that comes with relational breakdown and I suggested that relationships are the most fertile ground for upsets in our lives and therefore for absence of peace. But often these things have their roots in the distant past, things that happened years ago, maybe in our childhood, and we are living today with the damage from that. It is another of those things that robs us of knowing peace in our lives. Very often such things we push into our subconscious and, on the surface at least, forget them.
But they are not forgotten because every now and then something happens that triggers a response based on what happened back then. Imagine two children playing when they are fairly young and they have got hold of and managed to light a blow torch. One of them waving it around carelessly blows it across the upper arm of the other one causing very serious burns, which leave a scar. Now suppose the scar leaves a very tender feeling. Every time someone or something goes near that arm, that person, now grown up, will veer away from being touched.
Now translate that into the emotional trauma that can be left in an abused life. I used to know a lovely Christian man who eventually told me that his father used to lock him away in a room for hours on end when he was a child. For 98% of the time he was fine but every now and then something triggered the darkness he had known as a child, and he found himself withdrawing into his own dark hole and no one could get near him.
If such things have happened to you, you may say in the light of the previous meditation, “You want me to think well of the one who abused me as a child for years?” I would like you to face it and seek counsel from a trained local counsellor, I cannot do it in a few words here. We once counselled a young woman who shared she had been constantly raped by her father as a teenager and as a result could not let a man near her. Incredibly she was married and had two small children. How, we asked? I got drunk, she replied. To cut a long story short we listened to her for a morning, prayed over her for an afternoon and she went home free, so much so, her (unsaved) husband came and saw me and asked, “What did you do with my wife? She’s a raving sex maniac now?” He was blessed. She was free. It was God.
Don’t let past unresolved issues remain unresolved. Do seek help. God can deliver and heal ANYTHING! Peace follows.